sometimes i have a hard time coordinating my mouth with my thoughts. in my head, i come up with the deepest and most profound ideas, but i always have a hard time expressing them. they just become a cluster fuck of mumbles and stutters. so i’ll just stay a thinker, and when you see me in public, don’t mistake my silence for shyness. i’m probably just deep in thought.
The point is, remember who was there for you. Sure that person may make you happy. But that person could also be the your greatest downfall. Whereas friends would always be there for you, well the ones you can trust. It would be kinda fucked up, no it is fucked up for you to just abandon them and…
I really don’t believe in a balance even though it’s better. I mean, if I were in a relationship, I know for a fact that I’d still want to maintain the friendships I have but it’s just not possible. I mean, yeah, my girl can give me my free time and whatnot but by that time, I’d probably want to spend more time with her anyways. It doesn’t mean that I value them any less. I’ve just found something special. If my friends dare to say that I’m using them or just not valuing our friendships as much anymore because I can’t give them as much attention as I used to, then fuck them. If they can’t seem to accept the fact that I’m in a relationship, then fuck them. They do not own me. I do not own them. I can’t control them and they can’t control me. And I’m not really using them if I resort to them when I’m lonely. If they were true friends, they’d understand. It’s all a part of growing up.
All my high school friends were in relationships and when they left me for their bfs/gfs, I very much respected their alone time with them. Yeah, I felt lonely at times when they left but I never felt used when they returned. If they were happy then it was all good. Shouldn’t friendships be about seeing/making your friends happy?
I’ve been in a shitload of bullshit relationships where I had tend to stick with my significant other. Of course I regret it. But I’ve learned from my horrible past of bfs. (That was high school.) I’ve got the perfect balance right now. And that’s the mf truth (ask any of my main homies). Anyone else who thinks otherwise can gladly fuck themselves.